What's wrong with me?

as I left my childhood to enter into adolescence a great fear overcasted me leaving me scared and marked constantly wondering and fearing for the future I never enjoyed what was called "adolescence" difference from the others I always stay at home never really enjoyed company I kept to myself as I always wondered if I could have done something better remembering the fears and mistakes of my past I keep on trembling really wondering what is truly wrong with me wondering myself my sexuality who I am within as a person does it really all have to define me? I too fail to understand who I am myself I really too fail to understand the world that is around me from someone that was creative to somebody that has no creativity within despite what has happened within me it fled yet I asked the question again is there something wrong with me? 🌟