What to do to be loved

I have tried to be decent in every single relationship I have had while doing everything humanly possible, but they always ended up leaving me.Today, it is married men who are interested in me, I can only benefit from their love when they are available. They are married but ask me to be 100% in the relationship. I can only see them when they want. I can't call them, on weekends I'm alone when they are with their family on top of that I don't have the right to express my feelings. I just realize that I'm alone, really alone and it hurts a lot. What can I do to be loved as much as I love others? What to do to be considered as much as I consider others? What to do just to feel loved 💔💔