What she then wanted to say

Are we ever allowed to be okay again? Okay like fine with the mindset at peace. Are we ever allowed to be safe again? Safe like no trauma from yelling and frustrating things happening around, telling me not to be my self ever again. Are we ever allowed to be happy again? Happy like wanting to live my life and have no thoughts on how to end and leave the world behind. Are we okay now again? Or am I letting myself get insane with thoughts that never will become true.