what it feel like to break

what does it feel like to have your heart literally shattered .... well it feels more aless like u could take a can of gas to ur bed room and everything that means anything to you and who u were with this person then just say f**k it and light the flame 🔥 and let it all just burn ..to ash ... while ur insanity is ripped from ur own consciousness .... it's so F***ked how you can find someone so perfect for you ... but the universe constantly thrus out nails in ur path to stop u from moving forward .. even tho deep down in ur heart of all hearts ... u wanted nothing more then to be with and give everything to ... to make smile every morning when u roll over and she the open there eyes for the first time and ur the first image they see ... to see ur reflection back thru there eyes and u find happiness forever and acceptance all in one smile ..... but when I live with self destruction as ur inner demon ... there no way to be loved and love and it to ever work out like the imaging once in visioned when u use to look into there eyes ❤️❤️‍🩹