What is the end.

I have wondered and pondered on the everlasting wonder, I taught and bought the key to it all, I have dreamed and seen what it all can feel, I have shared and played this same note before, I'm am lost I'm scared can I ever escape, I'm crying I'm laughing at someone that's not real?, I'm dying in striving for something that's real?, I'm killing I'm delivering for who knows what, Can somebody take me out of this pot, Wait.... Wait.... Wait.... No what?.... Can I be?...., I've seen I've been in the same spot in this same pot of what?, I've played I've lived this same thing, I've been I've seen of something that's fake, I've saved I've prayed but I'm no good, May I be saved my someone who knows.