What I'm dealing with pt 1

my body aches today my mind is in disarray Just wearing a mask to hide the pain Trying to look everso brave Just wanting to see A brighter day Hopefully the odds are in my favor today So my inner demons Are kept at bay Thinking about the terrible choices I made Is the results of not thinking things through Not listening to the one's That gave me sound advice No wonder I'm feeling screwed Don't worry I'm not going to commit suicide I just need to write these feelings down Instead of keeping them bottled up After this poem is written down I could easily rip it up