what if

Sometimes I find myself lost in the maze of what if I run miles to get myself out of that maze but every steps I take reminds me of each regrets buried deep inside me I wonder what if i had never met you, If I hadn't met you l would have been more happier then now I Wonder what if I had courage to let you go, will | have the courage to accept myself as I'm I wonder what if I had never loved you, I Would haved loved myself more I wonder what if I never took your hand thinking you would pull me out of my darkness thenl would have found my lights by myself that slowly dimmed after I met you I regret it all, I regret meeting you,l regret not being brave enough to let you go, I regret not loving and accepting myself, I regret loving you and I regret letting you dim the lights within me. Will l ever get myself out of this maze or will I find my grave buried inside the maze of what if??