what if

I want to be good again. I want to wake up and be happy to be alive I want to feel alive I miss the excitement of being with you but what if I can create that for myself what if you were just one to teach me how it's supposed to feel to be alive to want to live. to have everyday with you feel like an adventure everyday was bright and exciting because i got to love you everyday and now, what if I love ME everyday because you weren't reliable you left me. I tried to fight and you left. so what if all this is for me to show me and believe in me what if I can love me the best what if