What Can I do?

"Will it be okay?"I asked myself I replied , " I don't know, I just hope my emotions don't show." "Are you trying to hide the way you feel?" "Or is it that you don't want to feel?" I asked again "If I am being real, I don't want to feel, I just want to conceal it." "I just want to cry in the quiet, without getting violent with myself." "I think that's a solution because no one listens when I cry for help." I replied. God, what should I do? I am lost in my thoughts, and I don't know what to do. Please tell me what can I do. My life is hopeless without you. Please tell me what to do. I need you more than ever. I struggle with my personal weather. but only you know how to make me better.