What a great mother

The screams the yells the fear that I scare won't let me disappear. The mother that I imagine is not even there I was unprepared. The love that I crave the hate that she gave just took me over like I am some type of food on a plate that nobody ate. A person who said they were going to die for me but they lied to me. She had never cared she just wanted to leave me in so much fear and just add to my layers. I always dreamed of a good mother but it just won't be another. I have to look for a mother in people but the one that I need was never there to take care of me through my tears, but yet i am still here rhyming like i need someone to hear. What a great mother