Weak

I'm tired, I'm just so critically exhausted at every moment, even when I'm asleep all I see are fuzzy dreams. It's not really something people understand. I've never had someone say it's okay, that they'll help me find the energy to do simple tasks. Someone who doesn't expect me to just push through it, to interact with hundreds of people almost every day and still have the ability to help in other ways too. I know all you were asking for was just to talk. I guess I'm just not able to do anything right. I'm a burden on my parents and an annoyance to my siblings, I'm distant to the people I love because I'm scared. I tell people all about my past because I crave the sympathy, I know I'm weak, I've always been that way. And I tell people my plans for the future because I crave the pride. I'm always taking and I can never give enough. I don't want to give up. I just don't know what to do. How to fix things.