Was my love not worth it ?

I sat up one night and said *Maybe he's different * maybe that's the lie I needed to hear for my heart to welcome him in . I told him ,* I can't handle the pain * and he promised , said he'd keep his word but then distance came in between and he chose to let me go . was my love not worth it ? all the night we spoke and made loud jokes and I sent u memes , ^ said I'd be ur be ur forever ^ was my love not worth it ? the first time u asked for a break up I said * I could handle it , that it's u I chose * love clouded my thoughts. was my love not worth it? Everytime we kissed and u made me feel like I would bend the rules with u . and all the mistakes I did were ones I would never regret. Yet u boldly tell me to move away and that I should hate u ........it's the 3rd time That hurts more than a break up , so I blocked u and mute ur status , told my friends I didn't care , yet ur the only one who mad me cry . was my love not worth it ........ and funny enough I'd still chose u stupid right ? yes not love wasn't enough