was it really a nightmare?

I had a dream about You ravaging me against the ground as I held the baby You put in me - everything around me sensitive - outrageously overwhelm- ing, purity and sunlight coarse under my skin. I told You I didn't want it but - You pushed into me harder - the curve of my belly caress against Your chest, stars sparkle not between our connection but thriving inside my stomach. I'm awake, now, but god I take that memory out and fondle it colorchrome in my mind. You filled me with something - another sense of life - and now You've gone savage and gone missing while I'm still here, breathing in sync with the growing thing You left inside me.