War

My mental and emotional state are at war so I built my walls high closed and locked every door so when you came knocking i had to be sure because I've been through some hell and I've been hurt before and it suprised me how quickly you became someone I so truly adore I just want to be enough for you I wish I could be more How easily you knocked my walls down and came in i was blown away in the wind trying to decifer is this real or pretend because I don't have the strength to be hurt again You make me happier than I've truly ever been you saw through the facade and removed my mask you saw me from within and you never judged me just loved me for me so I extended my heart to you and prayed it was something you'd want to keep Now I'm terrified and moving with caution praying I'm not left behind or forgotten because I've fallen for you and for me that does not happen often it takes a lot for me to let people in and soften I'm so terrified of fucking up with the one I'm in love with it's difficult for me to be productive I've learned the easiest way to not be destructive is to be silent do as I'm instructed Submission became a lifestyle most of the time they never find the brilliance of my mind.