Want to hate you but...

hating you won't do anything to me, but liking you when you don't like me will affect me not just "ME" but my well-being, my studies, and my whole life.. Trying to hold my tears back when you hold her hands heart is beating so fast, but breaking into real glass.. I never thought I could love someone that bad, never cared about them, and regretted it for my whole life. Having hard love feels like climbing a long mountain that's never had the finish line I tell myself to stop overthinking about my hard love, ' cause how will I live the rest of my life when it dies?!