Wait

They say to wait, to find something to make you hang on longer. Wait to finish something or go somewhere impossible. Wait until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time. Wait until they solve global warming. Wait until that new book or movie comes out. I use 2-in-one shampoo. Global warming is a natural process that doesn't need to be solved. I haven’t caught up to the next book. The “wait” is the hardest part. With the wait comes fights, yelling, the loss of control, the low self esteem, the suicidal pressures from your diseased brain. The therapist recommendations from people who don’t even know you but they think they can fix you. Take this medication, meditate, get a hobby. The medications stop working. Meditation leaves me alone with my thoughts. Who has time for hobbies when all you can think about is how low you are. But they tell you to wait.