W D my inner beast

I realize my mind has boundaries that my body cnt obtain. I need to feel the rush of it flowing through my brain. The power of it just subsides, my bodies thrown off guard, if letting go is easy then why is it so hard. I've been here for days In the silence of clusters in mymind, I wish I didnt feel like this all the fn time. reaching for a better place in which I can't succeed,its in my head I've seen it all and that is what I need. I want to be happy at some point in my life,but my brain is distorted visions aren't right. How I could be happy in a world even full of wealth, can't love nothing untill I learn to truly love myself I'll take these days so occupied in my guilty bed, and try to piece together things inside my head. I PRAY THE LORD KEEPS ME BREATHING IN MY SLEEP,if he don't then I ask just take my soul to keep.