vaping and overwhelmed

I'm sitting here sitting in the school bathroom floor vaping and staring at the floor trying not to think not to think about how... how I'm about to not pass to the next grade how I'm overwhelmed by classes how mom is mad because of it bandaids under my bracelets Last night was a nightmare the nightmare of relapsing to something you clearly wanna quit my arms sting my head hurts it's spining around I Thank to the nicotine I hate it but I love it how it helps me stop thinking relax for a little bit