Unwanted

So many thoughts are left in my head. the hole someone put in my heart has slowly drained out the love I once had. So much anger is patching up all the wounds making me survive differently. True I'm not the same person I was solely because someone cut out that part of me long ago.. Hated I've become feared I've remained building so many walls within myself not even a wrecking ball can shatter them. and on looker I've become seeking that which is beyond me. kindness is strange to me when expressed towards me. So foreign is the concept of acceptance. Tears fall silently unseen most of the time. Yelling at the sky has become a temporary relief beside drowning in my endless depression. No loyalty I receive no truth I've seen. All is evil all is hell so I've become at home.