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I have no more words to write. no more emotion to give. no more tears left to cry. I cant do this. not to you or i. I cant pretend im happy, when I'm not. no, I can not.. Im trying god please understand.. being a new mother is hard.. I am tryinf my best to learn and help them and his little toes grow. but, I ask for help.. and you just.. shut me out. and take them. and say youre not ready for this so i agree.. because i believe now.. I am not..