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I considered it the other day, Killing myself, I thought maybe a painless way. So I Googled it, I was told helium, But it's eleven at night, And I can't drive. So maybe the cliff? But I'll enjoy the fall and I'll think of them. I'll wish I didn't jump. I have bad legs, Maybe I shouldn't jump. I don't exactly want to die, But I do. I want to die, but I won't seek it out. I'll wait for it to find me. I won't run from it. But I have to live for him, So perhaps I'll stay here, For now.