until then

I remember the moments Where i fell in love with you moments I saw your Starry Eyes with a warm embrace holding me until then I had always been the one holding onto another the night through. I lost my breath and imagined how great a love with you would be. 2 decades and 4 daughters later I am lost again. you left with hate in haste when life got hard. I have to fix our girls world but knowing where to begin. I've loved you for as Iong as I've known what love is yet I'm so easy to discard? I hope you find a better life I do I hope for someone you will be a better wife and love someone true. maybe it can't be me and that's okay I still love you enough to want to see you truly happy one day until then I will remember the good times we had. until then I will remember it was not always this bad. until then I will tell you I still love you. until then I will remind myself I deserve love too