Until it starts again

Until it starts again and my heart starts racing my leg bob up and down and I'm shaking Until it starts again and the voices in my head get loud again And I'm stressed again and again and again Until it starts again and I'm about to explode and want to scream the thoughts out of my head Until it starts again and I need to wait for the darkness that would take over myself and I find the peace I wanna have the few hours I ever have when my body isn't stressed Until it starts all over again and again and again Until it starts again and my throat burns and the words won't come out again Until it starts again and I'm just the role The role of the manipulation in my head the manipulation that gets me bad Until it starts again and I won't give up again Until it starts again and I'm standing up doing the activities I'm good at Until it starts again and I won't give up and again and again Until it starts again and I shut the voices down Until it starts again and it was just me, myself and I Until it starts again and I win this war The war so many people lose Until it's done and I'm not the person with the war Until it's done and my scars will tell the history