Unsure

I've come to terms that I'm not one to be vocal about emotions Recently, I've realized that in spite of all these I still miss you I still struggle with feelings because of you I try not to let it show, keeping a perfect distance as always Yet, I fail to get you off my mind I struggle to let go of the intensity of your touch on my skin I fail to control my thoughts from bringing up the most insane scenarios What is beyond my understanding is what I truly feel Am I in love with you or do I just lust after you? What exactly do I want from you? Would I be willing to drown in the sea of romance just for you? Would I stand my ground on the principles I laid out for me? Or would they come to nought the moment we get entangled I'd admit that sometimes the only thing that fills my mind are thoughts of you and me entwined under the starlight Other times, it's different and I'd hope such thoughts never arise again You've said you loved me But what's the assurance that you aren't in it for the other details Are you just here to satisfy your Id's pleasure or because you truly care? Would I just be a succour or a fling? Or would you be willing to wait even if it's for a lifetime