Unspoken words

I say I won't, I am too afraid to say it. I feel the pain and joy, With you. I feel too deep sometimes, Yet I am scared to say it aloud. There are if and but, My mind has no control over it. I doubt, I overthink, Don't want to be an illusion. I want this to be real, Cause I don't want to hurt, neither you nor I. What is real or fake? When everything has come, with an expiry date. You call this love, Yet I can't respond to you back.