Unsaid goodbyes to unsaid name

Maybe it is too early to write my heart into these pages. I had to, but I couldn't let my face be drained by tears. If I had time in my hands, then I would have healed so fast. I'm not sure how long goodbye is worth saying. I wanted to say it, but I couldn't. I mean, it was so new for us. Say goodbye. I couldn't be worthy of saying goodbye when I barely knew your name, even your last name. I guess I didn't have the privilege to say it. All that is left is an unsaid goodbye. I looked into your eyes, knowing very well that I'm looking for the last time.  Now I can only imply my thoughts and turn them into these pages. When I looked into your eyes, I knew our world was collapsing. When the new dawn comes out, you will be in the distant future, where I possibly can't reach it. Maybe you will be gone.