Unsaid feelings

I wanted to tell you,but I couldn't find the right words or time,or should I say I never had the courage to do so because of the fear of rejection. It's been bugging me,been in the tip of my tongue for so long but no,it refuses to come out. Everytime I come across you, I avoid looking inside your eyes because I know that I might get hypnotised if I do. My heart is heavy with unsaid feelings and love. I want to tell you so much but I can't,and if you ask me why,I can't give you a straight answer without scattering. I'm a person with confidence and no fear to speak up,but when it comes to you,I'm rendered speechless. OMG,what are you doing to me? People say what kind of person you are,but I trust neither of what they say because I know whoever they say you are,aren't you. I want to know the real you,want to know your deepest secrets that nobody knows. And I want you to be the first person I tell my secret that nobody dared to dig upon. I don't know what to call this feeling I have for you. One minute I like it and the next I want it to vanish. Cause I know that I'm just holding on false hope. A dream that won't come true.