unrelenting beauty

The beauty of this world is unrelenting. it sneaks by us day by day. in plain sight. but you made it more significant. like the loud silence of a winters night filled with big snow flakes. or how the leaves of a tree turn white when a storm is fast approaching. the obvious magic the moonlight possess in the dead of night. the smell of a fall morning or a fall night or when two people see the same shooting star. the heavy lead ball that falls to my stomach when i look into your eyes. the way we appreciate all we have. only when it's lost. the color of the grass on either side of sorrow and despair. true love doesn't break your heart. it shatters your soul. the immature way I think if you spent an hour with me you would love and forgive me. the bitter cold I feel waking up without you. how we learn to swallow pain and keep the tears from rolling. the regret so devastating you actually hope for a time machine. you start to emvy every single person you see. because they don't know her...