undocumented

Undocumented daily The cage of thoughts spinning on a bulletin board attached to me The words that doubt my emotions and feelings constantly makes me puke The already dreadful corner i bypass screaming to be set free from this hell in my mind The memories of pain and despair that is screwed into me that makes the blood spill The panic that comes on like a bad habit that won't go away and mimics bad intentions The medicine that people tell me to take that is suppose to help make things easier They only blind others of understanding the pain and heightened emotions Mania at it's finest the rush of everything hitting like a bullet to the chest I can't breathe let alone cope with this morning madness Worsening everyday until I explode like a bomb in the middle of a store full of people Feelings of not being able to be stable on a daily biases, feeling overwhelmed and the power of you body breaking down on repeat The brain that is supposed to be a happy place that is now just making you question your well-being or if you will see the sun rise the next day The alcohol that you think maybe will calm it all even for a few minutes,soon to be regretted The cuts you burred deeper in the skin cus y