UNDIGNIFIED

Tik tok..... Tik tok the shadw of my ghosts look up at me.. Tik tok..... Tik tok my own fears and bruises mirrored in it's eyes.. tik tok It warns me that am in for a long ride, telling me that am not ready to face my past, my recent agonizing past Tik tok I am trembling with fear as it twists its lips in what looks like a smile It is that smile, the smile of mockery. I could swear he wore the same smile.. Mother has given it a name, Gabriella! She tells me it is just an offspring, one that the universe and the so called heavens did bring To me, it is nothing but a sin.. A remembrance of my disdain. Gabriella huh! A name so fancy, but it makes me so antsy... Gabriella looks deep into my eyes like she could read my soul Like she sees the hatred I have for her seeping right through my pores But how can I help it? just one look at her makes my hairs stand on end in fear and disgusting Gabriella, my source of anger and depression Ella, The never healing, constantly rotting wound. Gabriella A name I loath but listen to every day like a nursery rhyme Imagine my horror when mama says she looks just like my dad.... ~StormHalik~