under the rainbow (end)

When we talk about the people we love and the things we Once enjoyed Inside of you I see a world With endless possibilities Of beautiful things I've never been shown And when you look at me You see something I don't see You see so much more Than a hollow shell of just skin and bones You can see it in my eyes Crows feet, deep wrinkles and fine lines My life has been defined By opportunities and rights I've been denied Trying to get ahead in this rat race Content? Maybe even happy? I'd even settle for just a taste Desperate to feel my whole life wasn't just a giant waste Waking often with the hope That today won't be like yesterday8th But you know it will be Practice smiling through the pain Repeat positive affirmations But optimism is damn hard to find When I don't love me enough To walk away from a promise to kill me So hope tomorrow won't look like today And if there was a God I could believe in I might be desperate enough to call out, break down and pray But I can't believe in a God I'm supposed to fear Bc of his propensity for hate Bc fear and love Are opposing ideas And I oppose of the idea They exist in the same place