Uncontrollable Thoughts

I sometimes feel like I can't control my own thoughts. That feeling when I'm lying in bed while there's a dark, cloudy sky outside. The lights have a cool white glow, but only one of them is flickering really fast, like my heartbeat when I'm having a panic, or anxiety attack. I hear moths softly buzzing next to my window and think: "Maybe they're trying to talk to me. Maybe they're telling me to fall asleep. Or maybe they're asking me how I'm doing."