uncontrollable

I try to keep my eyes in place but they always peer to you then you notice I'm scared I don't want you to think I do because I don't I can't but deep down inside I want to but I don't want you to think I do I can't do that I could hurt so many people but all I think about is you when I'm near all I want to do is look at you all I want to hear is your voice your laugh but I have to keep them in place I'm trying to not lurk for you but I cant stop it's automatic uncontrollable