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I wanna ask you guys , Sometimes ,I felt like i catched all the karma in life maybe because I came from a broken family? That brings bad luck? I have a lot of questions running in my mind, questioning everything I almost break down and losing hope,until now its getting worst Last year we had conflict with my family, A Serious problems and was very painful that time I was out of my mind and thinking of suicide , but I fought It, I cried to God But now I'm feeling so weak, drained, and depressed. Again, I'm trying to convince myself that it will be over soon, but it's dragging on. When will I see rainbows? I'm losing faith.