unanswered trauma

So many times I ask why but got no answer. So many tears that one notice. Hurt so bad trying to survive all the pain. Why am I such a burden to the ones that should have cared. Damaged so bad not understanding why I have to go through it alone. Crying so bad that I'm flooded. The trauma is trying to defeat me but sometimes I feel like giving up The pain over powers me at times. I feel like a lost cause. Like a wreaken ball crashing through my heart. Sadness because the unanswered trauma. I know it all so well. Trying not to accept it but its hard.