unable to switch

there was a time when my head was switched off no thought reached my mind anything was carefree I didn't notice what was going on then there was another time when I accidentally pressed the button for a couple seconds it stayed 'ON' and I saw something wrong now is the time when my head is switched on I've never seen it staying 'OFF' again I kind a lost the button I see my wrongs clearly than before they also can't find the 'RIGHT' button