unable to love myself

i remember... i was seven years old, laying in the grass, looking upon the clouds and i wondered if i would ever be proud on myself. i was eleven years old, comparing myself with the other girls in the classroom, finding a thousand insecurities on me. i was thirteen and i started to hate myself for who i am, cant see anything good on me anymore. now i'm fifteen. i 've never loved myself. and do you wanna know something? maybe you shouldn't have loved me and made me feel unloveable at the same time. maybe i shouldn't hate myself, maybe i should hate you instead.