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wide awake,, hungry and lonely.. around the clock care for the little. not much me time beside a car ride to grab a coffee and to clear my thoughts. missing some as strongly as I miss the changing of seasons. fall, winter, spring. the seasons come and go like chapters,memories, moments. I remember every moment along side the ones I love and care about.. like a forgotten loved one returning in spirit to guide there family.. when I get lost in a bad headspace, I reflect on my memories. the good and bad ones. they help guide me in my life to make better choices for myself.. but the absence of a certain person that truly has had my whole being since the moment she walked over to my car and took a peak into my lost soul.. she just, has me. all of me.. in ways I can't make people understand.. sometimes I dont fully understand. the way she make me kneel so naturally to her. worshipping her everything motion in this world. an adiccit that chooses there addictions wisely, and carefully.. so irresistible so pure so everlasting.. like a vampire who found a rare blood type.. I will savor every ounce of you.. I won't rush my feelings brewing at this moment. I'll them them grow in silence —🫠