twisted love

help help help help I met the love of my life's crush the thing is I don't know if their crush loves them back I wish I could turn back I know I'm not good enough I just want them to be happy I wish I was dead I want to wait for them but I don't think they will ever like me back why why why why why why I was too late they love someone else I cant take it they will always see me as a friend their crush is literally dating someone! but that doesn't stop them I wish I was their crush I wish i could go back I wish I could move on but I can't I can't I can't I could never they are too perfect i will just fall inlove with them again please end this! but I don't wanna end it! what if they like me one day maybe I should move on.... or not? how could I move on?! the second I see them I'll be on cloud nine! I don't want their crush to reject them... but at the same time I do well I mean their crush has a partner... maybe their crush will reject them but then they will be sad I don't know what to think.. maybe I should just die... ( ALL THIS INFORMATION IS TRUE EVERY BIT OF IT IS ... ANY ADVICE? LET ME KNOW <3 )