TW:ED

I like to eat I like the taste I hate calories I hate the weight I go to school with an empty lunch box No one knows its empty Lunch comes Im starving No your just bored because your at school I tell myself One of my friends asked wheres your lunch Im not hungry I lied Im starving my stomach growling The next day comes Still an empty lunch box and stomach This time Im not hungry I got used to it I got used to the hunger The pain The dizziness It felt euphoric Thrid day rolled around and one of the boys called me fat I laughed it off and pretended I was fine But I was encouraged to keep starving One of my friends walked past me I wish I was as skinny as her She was healthy and skinny She didnt have to work to be skinny Why cant I be skinny like her My flabby stomach and big thighs hold all the weight I wish I could cut it off maybe then I would be skinny The more I looked at my friends the more I realized how they are perfect I was imperfect They had better womenly parts I had nothing Maybe I should workout Yes I did sports But I needed more So I did sit ups I eventually ended up passing out It was the middle of school I got up to leave and collapsed I was forced to eat So I threw it up I was finally skinny