turbulent

I despise the way you make me smile, And the way my heart skips a beat in a while. I loathe the way you know me so well, And the way you can make me laugh, even when I'm trying to yell. I despise the way you always win, And the way I always give in. I loathe the way you make me feel so alive, And the way my soul feels when you're by my side. I dislike the way you're always on my mind, And the way I find myself thinking of you all the time. I scorn the way you make me feel so weak, And the way my heart beats fast when you're near me. But most of all, I despise the way I need you so, The way my heart beats for you, and only you, I know. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all, I'm lost in you, and I don't know how to stand tall.