trying so hard

‎Could I just leave it or ‎Should I be more aware? ‎Should I care? ‎efforts do not necessarily give results in the end ‎Should I just give up? ‎Or do I need more willingness? ‎My eyes are filled with tiredness ‎Can't wake up and can't fall asleep ‎No matter how hard I try ‎Can't even fly ‎The darkness of the sky ‎Drowned me into this endless confusion ‎Pointless illusions ‎Effortless trying to reach a better conclusion ‎Whatever I'm saying is bullshit ‎I'm sounding like a big Hypocrite ‎Because you made me this way ‎You treated me like this, you pushed me away ‎