truth and thought

I try to speak my truth but something holds me back, something tells me to stop. The room is spinning, my body is dull and my head is full. Full of thoughts I cannot express with words Thoughts I am too afraid to speak aloud about I try cover it up with a smile and move on it never goes away it just grows and grows you don't know how long it grows for, everyday is worse then the last, new thoughts and ideas enter i can't keep track of time and what happens it just never goes away I try to find a solution to make it stop but I seem to never find one, I can't ask for assistance because u never know who to trust or where to look, looking makes it worse but all you want is for it to stop Lay in bed covered with opinions weighing you down like a Cement block on top of you Screaming for an avail ,no one comes all you want to do is speak your truth, be set free from your cage of hell