Traumatized love

All I want is only love, is it too much to ask, IAM tired of being alone, wiping tear in the middle of night. sitting on the balcony seeing you with other, Has shaken my core, all I want is long hug, forehead kiss is it too much to ask?? I have waited too long, AM I not desireble or am I not for love ? Here I am bleeding through my pen, Making heart on paper, with the initial of your name. Standing behind the way door with rose but you didn't open it.. I waited and I am still waiting, over and over the years. just for your smile toward me Is it too much to ask ? hurting my feeling and now IAM kind of used to it I won't say that I will stop looking you, still I believe that you are my dream I am on the phase and standing between the like and love So, I called it, traumatized love. I broke both my mind and heart to make you understand that you're all I ever want. These silly words and my heavy feeling like a butterfly in the garden. where I am around you, but you act like nothing happen.