Trauma

so many thoughts and memories went unsaid, and the negative thoughts cloud my head. they used my body because it was untouched, but now I feel I'm forever stuck. I want my virginity back. You took it like a heart attack. give back the secrets I told you in confidence, now that I am gone, you can't have it. all my time was waster on what I now know wasn't true love. give back what you have stolen, my heart forever has a hole in it. looking back, I realize there were no good times, bad memories pile up like coins that mainly consist of dimes. you never appreciated the things I gave you, the hoodie, the scrap books, the money, the food, the time, the energy, the sleepless nights, the plushies, my virginity, you stole, all of this just to cheat. the anger is an intense heat. you blamed it on the alcohol, that excuse totally isn't overused at all. these physical scars you left will never heal, they are bumped over lines on my skin, all of these thoughts and scars I forever conceal. you knew I am Trans and yet you still called me your girlfriend, even in front of my friends. my siblings Hate you, we are burning the scrapbook, full of pictures we took, all of that work was a waste, leaving a bitter taste.