Trauma

the doctor asks once again I'm free in my own thoughts my mom's out of the room gone I'm free for one sec I'm safe Is that what the feeling is called I couldn't tell you for once in my life I've finally felt this word everyone calls "safe" the doctor ask "have you ever self harmed"? "no" yes. "do you feel safe at home"? "yes" no. the cycle never ends the urge to reach out, to break down is slowly coming down on me but I grew up where if my walls of my emotions were coming down and I needed help it was always considered weak even tho I'm a girl I'm a girl who just wanted to be safe and be trauma free but now according to my classmates, I'm a man because I don't cry, I'll punch anybody and I don't take disrespect but I guess society has created women as the weak and the men as the strong so I would rather be called a man then be called weak