trapped in pain

Why does it feel like the world is against me? every step I take, every breath I make, feels like a struggle, a weight that's hard to shake. I'm tired of being hurt, tired of being blue, tired of feeling like I'm not good enough, too. I see others smiling, laughing, having fun, while I'm stuck in this darkness, feeling like I've been undone i wish I could be like them, happy and carefree, but it's hard when pain is all I can see... I yearn for love, for kindness, for someone to care, for a break from this heartache, this endless despair. I want to be happy, to be me, but it's hard when the world seems to be against me maybe someday, things will get better. Maybe someday, I'll find my way out of this weather. Until then, I'll hold on to hope, and keep on moving forward, no matter the scope. -flor calestia