transformation

the pain inside at times in unbearable I've become accustomed to distracting myself with substance distracting myself with men and sex my life has been nothing but wounds and bruises you would never guess the depth of whats hidden inside the negativity of trauma and self doubt I tend to hide attempting to heal is more painful than you think to relive things that your subconscious hides from you is hard to do but to heal from the past you have to sit in the pain without judgement you have to learn acceptance and forgiveness the only way out is through I got to do what I got to do I'm tired of feeling these things or choosing relationships that don't serve you I'm beginning to see I'm worth more than I've ever believed I wish I could take you with me but this is a journey I must face on my own alone with my pain because I need noone to judge anything I had to go through