Train sounds...

Dear God, It's been a while A while since I've felt this way, lost, Alone, Confused and anxious, The last time was real hard, way too hard. You held my heart and made me breathe again. Now I'm on a loud train, far away from you, didn't forget my prescription bottle labelled "Anxiety". Was confused for a long time, still am. But I think now I see a thread to pull on to unravel this heavy coat I've force on myself. I'm sorry it took me this long to realize what I thought I knew. I didn't know I didn't practice it enough. I apologize if I was a hypocrite, I can't remember. All the while I felt I was free falling without a parachute, abandoned in icy cold. Confused and irritable. All I needed was to obey I never needed to know the answers. Never needed to confirm, just obey. I will now. 💞