Toxic

Am I toxic? the storm clouds in my head are getting louder and I can no longer ignore them they rain in my brain letting the different thoughts soak into my brain but am I toxic? I look at my favorite people interacting with others and I get a burning jealously I want them all to myself does that make me toxic? I watch my partner interact with other people watch him jokingly flirt with other boys And I get annoyed because I want all of his attention even though I give others mine will they call me toxic? if I'm toxic just because I want my boyfriend all to myself if I'm toxic just because I say he deserves better than me if I'm toxic just because I get jealous when my closest friends interact with other people but not me then so be it I guess I'm toxic at least I admit it but if I admit it to them will they leave me? will they be disgusted with me? I never want to find out